Y’know there have been damn few posts where I write just about something on my mind. I’m always reacting to something else I’ve seen or read. Usually elsewhere on the blogosphere.



When it comes to spouting off opinions, I haven’t had the desire to launch into talking about things cold. I’m seized by the “perfecting the manifesto” disease. To write something about a topic, I’d have to be absolutely sure that I’ve got everything down “just so” before hitting the “post & publish” button.



Worse there are topics that I’m not entirely sure would be appropriate for such an open forum.



One such case is internal politics of the Libertarian Party. Is that something that one could talk about in such an “open to everyone” environment, without giving opponents of the LP things to use against us. The major parties usually try to keep in house matters in house. Otherwise it makes them look bad in the public eye….



I know that seems to fly squarely in the face of what blogging is all about. But at some point you have to realize that sometimes you only want to talk to a certain audience, but that luxury isn’t granted you in blogging.



Similarly I’d love to write about my personal life… I’ve been thinking about my life to date and the one part of my life that is completely absent, Romance. It’s been hitting me lately that I’m 34, still single, and a very sparse dating life. Feelings of loneliness that I’ve been noticing has been something I’d like to explore, and share with people.



However this could easily blow up in my face. I’ve never really been a fan of “online diaries.” Writing on such topics would make this blog one less of commentary, and drift it closer to the online diary format that I really don’t want this blog to be. I’m a shy person by nature, and I don’t really want to expose too much of my personal life to the world.



Worse, I’m afraid it would all come to blow up in my face. I could easily come off like I’m begging the women of the blogosphere for a date. Or scare off anyone who’d ever possibly date me in the future for fear of having themselves talked about in this forum. Even though there’s no way in hell that I would blog about anyone I’ve dated. “Kiss and Tell” is just… Well something I’m not comfortable with.



Admittably, I’ve posted about other people blogging about their personal lives (just look at the previous post). I guess I’m not above being a bit of a voyeur, but I don’t want to be an exhibitionist.



So even here, it’s a matter of being limited by the fact that the blog is open to the world. I’m much more comfortable with personal topics in speeches I give to my Toastmasters club, because I know that these people are my friends.



Even now I’m working on a speech for the Humorous Speech Contest, that ties into all this. It’s about the skill of going out by myself, especially when dining out. It’s gotten some good feedback so far.



By the way, anyone interested in attending the Area 14 humourous speech contest on November 1st, in Brunswick, ME, to hear me and other speeches. Go to this page for details. (or e-mail me if no details are up yet)



So, yeah. I’ve been feeling like:

• This blog has had very little original content
• and I’m lonely